It is one of the most basic and fundamental needs, and it impacts even the most mundane decisions. And yet, I cringe every time I have to say the word “money.”

Money. It’s just a word, but it’s become like a dirty word for me. I still can’t bring myself to say it, especially out loud. Even in situations where it’s the most appropriate word to use, I’ll say “payment” or “bank transfer” instead.

But I’m far from the only one. A quick google search brings up pages and pages of links to people who feel the same as I do about money — interesting.

There are articles about knowing your self worth and how to ask for a pay rise. There are others explaining the psychology behind why so many of us are uncomfortable talking about money. And there are still others that focus on women and money, and how it seems to be a unique problem especially for us females. 

I was listening to a podcast earlier this week — The Space, by Casey Donovan and Amy Molloy. It was a mini podcast, and it was all about money. In particular, women and money, and how to manifest a sense of abundance in our lives. 

Donovan quotes Peta Kelly, author of Earth is Hiring: The New way to live, lead, earn and give for millennials and anyone who gives a sh*t.

A self made millionaire in her 20’s, Peta recommends repeating the mantra: “I love money, and money loves me.” 

When I heard this, I thought it sounded completely ridiculous. But apparently, there’s more to it.

The aim is to stop fearing money or feeling like it’s the enemy. That way, you can begin to see it as something that is working for you, rather than against you. 

Kelly also recommends writing a love letter to money, and expressing how you feel towards it openly. It may be annoyed, frustrated, angry or grateful, or a mix of a few emotions. She then recommends describing the relationship you’d like to have with your money and setting an intention to help achieve your goals. 

I must admit I haven’t heard about Peta Kelly until now, but after researching her for this piece, I’m tempted to part with some of my own money to buy her book. She sounds pretty awesome. 

I don’t know if writing this post has brought me any closer to conquering my cringe-worthy-money-anxiety dilemma, but at the very least I’m proud of myself for using the word “money” so many times. 

This may not be a love letter to money, but surely it’s a step in the right direction.